It’s only day two of the 21 day season of fasting and prayer in our church, and I’m already feeling it. The mire in me rising to the surface. Each shortcoming standing itself up to be dealt with like a row of dominos that need to topple one on another for me to experience a breakthrough. That’s the feeling. It’s so hard to describe our feelings sometimes. We grab at narratives we hope might connect with someone else or paint pictures with our words if we can because, in the end, we have a deep desire for companionship in our pain and suffering. Not to celebrate it and encourage it to grow. But to share it, spread it out into manageable payloads we feel strong enough to carry. For ourselves and others.
That’s the root. Doubt. I doubt I’m strong enough. Even though I have numerous verses to cling to when the waves of doubt wash over me.
- “I am able to do all things through Him who strengthens me.” Philippians 4:13 HCSB
- “Haven’t I commanded you: be strong and courageous? Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9 HCSB
- “Do not grieve, because the joy of the Lord is your stronghold.” Nehemiah 8:10 HCSB
I get to this place every time I’m going through a season of growth. That doubt reveals, yes, right now I’m not strong enough for what is ahead, but God is growing me through these adversities and trials. The waves of doubt crash against the shield of faith I hold out in front of me. I’ve been here many times before and while that may seem encouraging at first, there’s always an opportunity to fear. I know firsthand how painful the growing process can be.
Facing the mire in me, and at the same time allowing Him to draw out more of what He made me be. Exchanging the mire for the glory. All so I can look more like Him, for His purpose, for His glory.
In this season of 21 days of prayer and fasting our church has laid out three focal points of prayer. Alignment. Breakthrough. Clarity. And when my husband asked me which one I was praying for I knew instantly.
Breakthrough. Because to breakthrough to a new level of living out His plan and purpose for me in this season, I would need both alignment and clarity. I need to align with my God who loves and cares deeply for me, rooted in my identity of being His. And I need to gain a new level of clarity of my gifting and calling. The alignment and clarity will provide the growth to experience a breakthrough.
First, I need to quiet the doubt by aligning with what is true. Yes, I’m not strong enough right now. But my Heavenly Father chose me and will grow me in His strength for what is next.
Second, know my mission by gaining clarity on the assignment. Yes, I can’t do it all right now. But my Heavenly Father has deposited gifting within me to use in this season.
Third, take small consistent courageous steps toward growth. Yes, there is a painful gap between where I am and where I need to be to break through to a whole new level. But my Heavenly Father is with me, He is for me, and He will lead me through the process.
When a wave of doubt hits us we have a courageous choice to make. We can let it inform us of a growth opportunity, or soak us in fear. Fear and faith cannot keep company for long; only long enough for us to take a courageous step of faith. Take time to get aligned with God and strengthened in Him, get clear on your mission, and move into growth and experience your breakthrough. After all, a breakthrough is evidence of supernatural growth. He’s the super part and you are the natural. Each threshold of growth will require this process. Exhausting yes, but worth it. You are worth it friend!
Melissa C. Dyer
Melissa is a writer and podcaster who has lots to say about courage. She believes that all women need encouragement and a Champion in their corner. Her first book, Learning to Roar released this month! You can keep in touch with Melissa on Instagram @MelissaCDyer_ on Facebook @MelissaDyerWriter on her website www.MelissaCDyer.com and listen to her weekly on her podcast www.TheCostIsCourage.com (available on all podcast platforms).
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