To A Mother With An Aching Heart,

It was easy to love your daughter when she was a little girl.

However, loving her as she takes flight into this world…well it is hard.  I know you had other plans for her.  Believing your family would have a special bond that others would admire and even be jealous of.  You dreamed big dreams while carrying her in your womb.  And this situation over the last few years has thrown you for a loop…paralyzing you with doubt about your motherhood and what mistakes you made.

I know your heart aches.  I am sorry for your pain.

I wish I could tell you it would magically get better and that she would come running back.  Like when she was little, and she fell down and got hurt.  She came crying to you with the pain of her scrapes and bruises.  With open arms you comforted her telling her it would be ok as you cleaned her wounds.  But now she doesn’t come running back.  She carries the weight of the world and the weight of her mistakes on her shoulders…alone.  You question, “Where did I go wrong that she refuses to let me into her world?”

These are scary times for you.

It feels out of control and you want to fix it.  You cannot fix this.  Or you want to ignore it and act like it isn’t happening…that won’t help either.  However, don’t be discouraged.  Rather, find the courage to love her when it hurts.  Don’t fix, don’t judge, don’t give speeches, don’t lash out in anger.  Patiently pray, be a good listener and believe the best about her.

“Love is patient.” I Corinthians 13:4.

Child, I don’t have all the answers.  However, I do know the one who does.

He loves her more than you could ever imagine.  She knows Him because you told her about Him when she was young.  She is never out of His reach no matter where her decisions take her.  No sin, guilt, shame or mistake will ever keep Him from loving her.  He has a plan for her life and it is His plan that He will bring to fruition.  Her Creator…your Creator will never leave you or forsake you.  This is the hope you have.

“It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.” Deuteronomy 31:8

Lean into God.  There your will find hope and rest.  Take to heart, your daughter is in the hands of God Almighty.

With Love,

A Mom with an Aching Heart Too