Have You Ever Felt Like Saying…I Quit?
I said those words to my boss…I quit! Not just any job, but my 12-year, six figure income career. A career that included all the perks: company car, business travel, 401K, stocks and benefits. Crazy and reckless…maybe. However, it was a decision I felt deep conviction about.
It All Started a Few Years Ago
I was lacking purpose and meaning in my life. Do you know that feeling? Getting up, going to work, taking care of the family, the pets, the household and more. Trying to accomplish this so called work-life balance with far too much on your plate. It seemed that days blurred into weeks and weeks blurred into months. Depression, anxiety and moodiness took hold, while joy, excitement and contentment declined. Asking myself some serious questions, I started on a mission to find a meaningful life.
Successful Career BUT Something Changed
A complicated journey, that is exactly what this has been. Most people who quit get another job first. Or they get laid off or fired. Not so with me. Employed by a reputable corporation, I was treated well. With every company reorganization/down sizing I was asked to stay and even promote. I worked my way to the top of the profession and was successful. For several years I enjoyed my job and felt like I was exactly where I was supposed to be. I embodied skills and talents that contributed to my success. Parts of my job offered some fulfillment.
Though I was thankful for my job something was missing. I spent years trying to find my purpose and passion. Very confused, I had to ask myself some hard questions. If I am good at what I do and I am treated well…why am I so unhappy? Is it possible to be good at something that isn’t your passion? At one time I was satisfied with my work. Has my job changed or have I changed? Maybe a little of both but regardless my heart is longing for something different.
“Don’t wait for the pain of life to force you through a door that wisdom calls you to choose now.” ~John Ortberg
Admiration for Women Whose Life Work and Passion Intersect
Admiration, that is what I have for women who live out their passion. Ladies who have known from a very young age exactly what they were meant to do. They seem to have a self-awareness or internal insight that is a mystery to me. There are others who have taken a traumatic past experience and turned it into a mission to do good…who have made their life’s work about making a difference. These women’s lives represent the true meaning of Chickening IN! The place where life’s work and passion intersect.
Trapped by My Income
Searching for that place where life’s work and passion intersect, I felt trapped. My husband and I were accustomed to living a 2 income lifestyle. Not rich but certainly comfortable. No stress about bills. Plenty of money to pay them with leftovers for careless spending at my favorite stores: Nordstrom and Target. A nice house, nice cars, a boat, vacations, private school for the kids….how in the world can we maintain our lifestyle in pursuit of a meaningful life?
More to My Story for Future Blogs
There are many layers to my story. Far too many to include now but will be addressed in future blogs. But it included a bold decision to homeschool my daughter and start a writing career!
I’m Chickening IN…I Quit!
I stepped out of my comfort zone and took a leap of faith into unknown territory or what I call traveling an unknown road. I walked away from a good job in search of more. More life, more adventure, more meaning. Today I am beginning to live a new life. To live courageously, facing my fears, seeking my best life, my best work. Seeking the specific purpose God has given me. Today I am Chickening IN!
How About You?
What answers would you give if I asked you these questions?
- Does your life’s work fulfill you?
- Does it make a difference in this world?
- Are you living intentionally with purpose and meaning?
If you are facing a crossroads situation like me, consider the quotes below:
“Don’t fear failure, rather fear being in the exact same place one year from now.” ~Unknown
“Fear is a self-imposed prison that will keep you from becoming what God intends for you to be.” ~Rick Warren
“Never be afraid to try something new. Remember, amateurs built the ark; professionals built the Titanic.” ~Unknown
Come along and walk this road with me. I don’t know where this unknown road will lead me to…maybe, I will regret quitting my job. Time will tell. Deep down I am compelled to Chicken IN and find out!
JJ @ Chickening IN